Miracles in the making

When I feel like I am on the cusp of some sort of breakthrough, or am processing something big, I spend a lot of time thinking and writing about whatever is swirling around in my head and my heart.

And after days and days- sometimes weeks and weeks- of morning pages and nighttime journaling and writing down random thoughts and recording the dreams that show up in my sleep, I finally come to a place where I can stop.

and state what it is I need.

and own what it is I feel.

and ask for what it is I want. 


When I finally get to this place, a place where I can stand inside my own truth, I write the statements, the questions and the wishes that I'm holding close on these tiny slips of paper, tie them up in knots, and put them to rest somewhere in my home.

Today, they are resting next to my bowl of heart shaped rocks.

I do this because I believe it honors my needs, my wants and my wishes in a very real, very concrete way.  I do this because I think it's healthy to state your truths and stand your ground, even if only to yourself.  I do this because while I believe that sometimes life requires hard work, I also believe sometimes it requires patience and faith.  I do this because I know that all of this and more is coming to me, but I have to hold the space (oh, you know how I feel about that phrase) for it.

So I write them down, I tie them up and I leave them be until I feel compelled to open them.  Or not.  Either way, I believe that by writing them down, by making the effort to make them real, I've exercised some of the faith that is needed in making the things I want and need happen.

It's powerful, people. 
It's a powerful thing to be able to name what you need and say what you want.
It's how big shifts happen and how big lives are lived.
I'm harnessing some of that power for myself. It's all written down.


I've been sorting through some very big things lately, making some life changes that are right and good but any change can be taxing.  I'm feeling a little bit tender lately, a little weary and careworn.  It's a cycle, a part of the ebb and flow.  But in an interest to take care of myself and pay attention to what I need, I'm taking a little bit of a blog break - probably only a week or so, but I'm leaving that open to whatever comes up.

Also, I know that I learned this technique somewhere, but I honestly cannot remember where or who told me about it.  A class I took, maybe?  Mondo Beyondo?  Anyway- the idea wasn't mine originally but I've seen it work for me and it can work for you too. Try it. (and if you know where I learned this, please tell me so I can credit the person next time - thanks!)